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LDR- Gendered Politics Course reflection

This course could not have been taken at a time more fitting than the one we are living in today. The chaos and lack of leadership in our government paired with the constant and forced self reflection of quarantine has created the perfect environment to clearly understand the material in real time.

On my own I had of course seen many examples of proactive and successful female leaders but  never really saw their characteristics in depth. In this course, I was able to understand that our society’s ideas of gender are so incredibly dependent on our environment that when we strip the descriptors and expectations, they become meaningless.These traits that we exhibit are not limited by our gender at all. As a girl, from early on I internalized many false ideas of what it would mean for me to be “powerful”. I saw myself as taller, tough, suited up, straight hair, etc.I think back to that image of myself and realize all the efforts to dress and appear like the women I saw as leaders was simply a way to force myself into a mold that had never been made for me to begin with, not only because of my gender but also race and class. What I realized in our  introductory material on Intersectionality  is how we cant view identities as singular traits, but layers of experiences that create uniqueness. I also came to understand through the analysis of female leaders and male leaders who flawed the idea of “leadership” was. It  relies on power being a ruthless, imposing force and favors traits traditionally considered “manly”. I no longer seek to press myself into the acceptable mold of female leadership, but to dismantle it.

I am reminded daily of the work of Leymah Gbowee and the women in Liberia, who with solidarity and community were able to use their own power to reach change. It has inspired me to see such radical change brought forward by the very people society often overlooks.I loved to see how they all worked with their individuals strengths to create a solid movement. This is also something I have learned to use. Through the strength quiz I have been able to reflect on the things that I bring into my leadership and how to use them to help others.In my community, I have done some grassroots organizing to fight for immigrant rights and work with people whose leadership is often ignored in the big picture. The leadership of those who lead alongside the people, not for them. The leadership made up of women who are seen as individuals before they are seen as mothers, sex objects, or anything else. Men who allow emotion, compassion, and compromise and who have broken through the expectations of what “male leadership” looks like. This advocates for the importance of intersectional leadership and representation; being able to break down the simple concepts of why we view leadership has allowed me to dismantle all the misogynist, white supremacist and classist lies I grew up with.

Clifton Strengths

The Clifton Strengths Assessment scores an individual on a list of 34 key strengths, it was invented by Don Clifton under the belief that by focusing on the good and not bad, you could empower individuals based on their unique strengths and help them build better relationships in teams. From, Adaptability, Woo, Inlcuder, and more, the quiz will rank you based on what strengths you score the highest for and offer learning material on how to better expand these strengths in your life and workplace. I, being a big fan of personality quizzes, was eager to take the assessment and receive my results. The quiz will only show your top 5 categories, and for me those were: Adaptability, Empathy, Belief, Restorative and Context. The results are not surprising given other tests I have taken but they add to a deeper understanding of myself and my core traits as a person. Specifically the ideas of being “restorative”. 

This trait in its description, is present in people who see problems and want to fix them. These are people that are solution-minded and may sometimes take on things that other people think “can’t be saved”. I don’t think I would have ever described myself in these terms before but upon reflection I strongly believe that that is a core aspect in my life. From little things like my obsession with thrifting and House Flipping show to the constant needing to resolve conflict and leave something better than I found it. I would like others to see side the most. I think that it reflects all of the other strengths as well, it reflects my adaptability to overcome obstacles, my empathy to mend, my strong set of values, and my time to reflect on the past. In teams I often try to find the solutions, find them quickly and execute them. In relationships I try to avoid conflict and in projects I often take on things that I know perhaps are out of reach, simply because I feel a need to see them done or prove this obstacle can be subdued. It’s good to know how I can benefit the group but also to see for myself how my own need to “fix” can stand in my own way. I continue to learn what my limits are but know that no matter the task I will give all of my energy to it until the end.

Leymah Gbowee – Webinar 9/20

We were first introduced to the story of the Liberian civil war in our Leadership classes, and in the documentary “Pray the Devil Back to Hell” that narrated the brilliant and courageous journey of liberian women who banded together to end a bloody civil war in their country. Leymah Gbowee was monumental as an advocate and continues to be an important voice in activism. She is a Nobel Peace Laureate, but most importantly she is a  successful woman who empowers and educates another generation of successful women leaders. Gbowee spoke mainly of the difficulties faced in their quest and opened up about her personal experience in the Q and A segment. For me the point that resonated the most in my mind was her mental strength.

This is a problem that is especially relevant to today.There is no escaping what feels like a dooming reality and paired with the pre-existing monotony of college life, sometimes you look up and wonder if there even is anyone looking out for you. 

So, “How does one deal with fighting for your own existence everyday when it’s exhausting?” the question was posed. ‘What else is there?” Gbowee responded. What else is there? Ha! 

Nothing she says, there is nothing else. If you don’t fight for yourself no one else will. This wasn’t exactly the answer I’m sure we were expecting but Gbowee is right, you can allow yourself time to repair and rest but you cannot ever stop fighting because the second you do you’re gone. I think that mental strength is one of not the  most important characteristics of leadership and of life. Whatever the goal, being tired cannot be an excuse. It’s amazing sometimes how far you can make it with that mental strength. In the film it really struck me how these women who in many cases had been victims of unspeakable crimes continued to expose themselves to violence through their movement. How they stood hand in hand and forced their leaders to bend to their wills, they used the power they had as women and slowly gained the momentum necessary to overhaul their system. 

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